And something did come up...

I keep saying the most exciting thing about everyday is not knowing what will happen that day. Half the things and people I saw yesterday where not what I had planned or envisaged.

On my way to the bank I got a call for a brief. I headed to the meeting and was told they required a proposal first thing this morning. So as it is I have not slept since yesterday. I worked till the early hours of the morning, set my alarm for 7 am but I couldn't sleep even for an hour for fear of not hearing the alarm. Sometimes these things happen when you are in deep sleep. I could not risk it.

So I sent of the proposal this morning and I have been home all day, awaiting feedback.

Today must be ex boyfriends' day. I had an interesting conversation with Kunle (university boyfriend) still on this subject of me and my work. I told him that I preferred being a free lancer than growing a business. In his own words he said he was disappointed as he he knew I could do better.

Now, what's with this better thing, is owning your own business the ultimate goal for all? Like I tried to explain, I just don't seem to have the zeal to run a firm. I have always preferred consulting for other businesses not running my own. I think I don't like being responsible for anyone but myself. That may be the real issue. Maybe the same reason why family life is scary:-)

Now I feel confused. When I say I want to be in governement I get weird looks. People think I am crazy, they wonder whether anyone can really aspire to be in such.

For me it's the thought of doing something for the masses. I guess I really need to sort this thing out o. Because no one wants to hear that I don't want to grow my firm.

I just feel like I should be somewhere else and where it is I really do not know. I know what I will do...I need partners to work with.

Anyway, My post University boyfriend found me on facebook today. It was interesting to speak to him, he doesn't seem to have changed much at all.

I really need to get back into exercising. I think this is the longest period that I have not exercised in years... and I can feel it.

Yesterday I also went to see my ex ex boss, not the last one but the one before. They were in a meeting, it just reminded me of all those meeting we used to have then. I really miss them :(, the people not the meeting, well a little bit of both

That was one place that really entered the depths of my soul, so much love... I don't know whether it was real or I imagined it but I am too emotionally attached to that firm. I need prayers. I just realised I may have an obsessive personality or is it addictive personality. I will justify it when I have investigated further.